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I was told that there are some people making fun of me for having feelings and writing about them. If you want to be my friend that's fine but please don't play like you want to be my friend and then stab me in the back. Well you know maybe that would hurt alot less than this!!!!!



September27,2006

Tina L. Teater

I am so lucky to have found friends on the rave, even though we had to meet under very bad conditions. I am so thankful to all of you that understand what I am going though. I don't have to tell you that I am very hurt and depressed. I never thought that Ted would do this to me but again I was wrong. The only thing that I can say is I am going to prove him wrong no matter what it takes I won't let him keep me down!!

You know when a spouse says that they need time away that usually means a couple of hours not a trip to TX. and not know if he has a place to stay which he doesn't!!!! But the sad part of all of this I am Still Very Much In Love With Ted"Neshoba43" Teater.



Sunday 09-24-06

Tina L. Teater

Today is Sunday September 24,2006.

I have been doing a lot of thinking today. You see my husband has portered him self on the rave to be something other than what he actual is in real life.

I married Ted "Neshoba43" Teater on March 16,2002. I have supported him while he was in prison and even after he got out this last year. Now he has ran off to Waco TX. thinking there is a women waiting for him, just because he is a sweet talker. They meet on the rave and he is only trying to use her for money!

I have been crying over him and I just can't bring my heart to just say hay He not worth any of this heartache! I should have taken advice from Tammy Wynette I don't want to play house because it only makes you cry. Well if he wants his good girl to go bad then I guess that's what I will have to do. Ted wants someone that is slim and let me tell you I am over weight but trying to lose weight but that isn't good enough for him. I have been told that he makes fun of other over weight women on the rave. Am I just plain stupid and I can't see what he is doing to me or is it I just don't want to believe it? For the last 2 days I haven't been able to eat, sleep. There are some rooms in the house that I can't even stay in because I see him there and I just fall to pieces all over again.

Yes I want Him back I truely believe in the marriage vows that I took on March 16,2002.I try to live by them but he isn't making it easy for me. I have been faithful to him even while he was in prison and even now!! Now can you tell me that's not love?

Sorry for pouring out my problems on all of you on the rave, but I just needed to get it off my chest.

09-24-06

Tina L. Teater

Today is Saturday September 23,2006. Some of you don't know but my husband is the one that calls himself Neshoba43. His name is Ted Teater we were married on March 16,2002. Ted has broken my heart so badly in the last couple of days I don't know if I will be able to ever make it right again. I know that I am not mentioned in his journal but we are married . I love Ted with all my heart I only wish that he could see that and understand sometimes people are different from others! I want to be with Ted for the rest of my life but I don't know if that is going to happen.